Damn! I miss you, blog! Today, I'll share with you guys what this month has been doing for me. Sadly, I consider this month as the worst month for this year since a lot of bad things had happened to me which really tested my faith in God and trust in Him. So here it goes:

November 12, 2010 Friday; The day when I met my good friend, Dona to replace the lenses I bought on her. It was already 8 pm I think, when I finally arrived at the location for our meet-up. I got the new lenses and decided to go home right away. So while I was riding a bus heading to Cubao, an old man entered the bus and was selling dried mangoes. He was looking and acting weird that night. He also gave us a note telling that he's a missionary and he's doing that selling shit so he could help an organization which I can't remember the name anymore. So I was like, "Ah, sorry po. Wala po akong barya e. Pauwi na po ako. Pasensiya na po." He didn't stopped convincing me until I decided to vacate my seat and transfer to another one. I got scared when I saw him staring at me as if I did something wrong. I started to get more scared when he also transferred in a different seat, and that seat was right next to me like I was on the left, then the isle, then him. Isn't that scary? And not only that, I saw him through my peripheral vision that he's really staring at me like he looks every gestures I do, up and down. So I ignored him. Luckily, he was the one who got down the bus first. I prayed to God to please guide me and don't let any other human-being to do something against me.

Finally, I arrived Cubao. I walked till I reach the street where I usually ride the jeep going to my destination which is Sta. Lucia. While waiting, a woman, not-so-old, kinda dirty and was carrying a crying baby, stood beside me and talked to me. I was shocked and felt awful with the things that came out of her mouth. She said, "Uy, baka naman pwede mo kaming tulungan. Wala na kaming matuluyan. Galing pa kaming Dagupan. Kahit magkakatulong na lang ako sa inyo. Maglalaba o maglilinis ng bahay, kahit walang sweldo ayos lang. Basta may matutuluyan lang kami. Wala kaming pamilya. Kawawa naman yung anak ko. Gusto ko ng ipaampon. Sige na, maawa ka, tulungan mo naman kami." I replied, "Naku, bata pa ho ako. Magagalit po yung magulang ko sa akin e. Hindi ko pa po kayang magdesisyon para sa bagay na yan. Naaawa man po ako sa inyo. Wala po akong magagawa. Punta na lang kayong DSWD." She really tried to convince me to help her but I really don't know what to do. She also said that DSWD will only make their lives more miserable. Like,"Kakawawain lang kami dun. Paghihiwalayan kami ng anak ko tapos pahihirapan kami." I walked away and said," Pasensiya na talaga Ate ah. Di ko kayo matutulungan. Kawawa naman yung bata. Ingat po kayo, pauwi na rin ako e." She really didn't stop until I stayed afar from her. I really felt sorry for her and for the child. I wish I could do something about it. I also tried to share this story with my family and friends and they said, "Naku, buti lumayo ka. Sindikato yan." I don't know if I should really believe that but now I realized that there really is a possibility that it could be a crazy tactic of "Sindikato".

I was already standing in a pole with a light next to me, when someone bumped me behind and said, "Wag kang maingay, kundi babasagin ko mukha mo." It felt like a diabolic creature whispered my ear that made me shiver. He looks scary and my vision that time was still clear and I can see him looking so evil. He's a robber. He opened his bag and I saw a long, huge chain, perfume and some other stuffs then he said, "Subukan mong tumakbo, hahabulin kita at babasagin ko yang bungo mo. Akin na yung cellphone mo." I really can't scream or even say a single word that time. The feeling was really scary as if the two of you were the only person in that place and that you can't even run or move away to ask for help because your feet felt like it's glued on the ground. But I still I said, "Naku. Wala po akong cellphone e. Hindi ko po dala. Maawa po kayo sa akin." He replied, "Tigilan mo ko ah, wag kang umiyak kundi sasapakin kita. Asan na yung wallet mo? Akin na!" I took my wallet and I asked him to please let me go and I will give all the money that he wanted. I couldn't protect or even fight for myself that time because he's twice bigger than me like he's a wrestler. So he let me go away and I ran so fast. Luckily, I was able to ride a jeep going away from him that's fast and kinda full. Then I arrived Sta. Lucia safely but was still in shock. I took my phone inside my bag. Whew! I put my phone inside my bag which the robber didn't know. I took it out and called my sister and told her everything. She was really nervous that time and felt sad yet still thankful that I'm safe and that nothing worse happened to me. I arrived home in cold sweat and shaking. I immediately prayed and cried to God.

So yeah, there the tragic, unforgettable experience ends. I hope this would also serve as a lesson for you guys like I do. I also wish that this would never happen to you guys and learn to be vigilant on your surrounding whenever you're outside, especially at night where demons are playing. Keep safe, be more alert and careful and may God guide us all the time.